Update: Own something this guy has done things to! Check out The Doll Forum for details.
An Image of Love: Kevin and one of his harem, Daphne.
Kevin Havens (alias casperghostboy, casperg1977) is a sick fuck who recently became the subject of a thread on SomethingAwful that has made it into the Comedy Goldmine. It can be viewed here.
At first he seemed to be just some retardedhillbillyMac user who liked fucking sex dolls and didn't know that it wasn't such a brilliant idea to post that information on the internets. With a little bit of detective work, the Goons found out he was something far more hilarious.
Kevin didn't mind telling everybody about all of his aspierations. Kevin had no problem telling the whole fucking world about his love of his dolls and all about how they had names and personalities. He didn't mind telling the world that his goal in life was to one day own a RealDoll. He didn't mind saying he also loved Linux. He didn't mind putting pictures on the internet of him and his dolls. He didn't realize that it is not wise to use your IRL name while traversing the tubes, let alone use the same username on every fucking site you visit.
He didn't understand why people laughed at him, or how they were able to find more stuff to laugh at him about. His e-life was about to get raeped.
Well, I talked to my therapist, “Skip” Santti, with the wonderful organization Tidewater Psychotherapy Services (a step ahead of the Dept. of Human Services’ iteration of it) yesterday, and he supports my iDollator “feelings” (as he likes to call them) not 100%, but pretty damn close to 85 to 92%. Just like homosexuality ([EDIT:] but I’m not homosexual btw), Pygmalionism (iDollator, Agalmatophila, ASFR) is a normal part of my sexuality. Unlike the clients and staff with Human Services, Mental Health Services Div., who wants to be hell-bent with “getting me off of ‘it’,” Skip says that my sexuality is normal in my own perspective, and while others (including members and staff at Beach House) may not “get it,” but it would be in my own best interest not to tell them that I am a Pygmalionist.
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— Kevin Havens. In his own words.
Kevin is best known for being a dollfucker with statuephilia. One look at him speaks that he doesn't have much of a choice. He claims to have Asperger's, but we all know there's no such thing amirite? If anything, his face screams FAS. His beet-red complexion is due to a combination of high blood-pressure from ingesting tons of caffienated beverages and junk food every day and sunburn due to his crackaGerman heritage. It's doubtful he is red-faced from shame, but given that he's more or less gone into hiding after his "secret" was revealed it can't be ruled out.
As for the NOTism claim, his blogs do indicate he's nonetheless maladjusted and prone to obsessive behaviors. NOTE: These blogs are cached and as such may be shuffled around. A few of these work some of the time, but by no means all of them. You can also check out his Doll Forums posts here.
And finally, when I was “high” on something I smoked back when I wrote the thing on braindisorders well, I was lucky to find something on Asperger’s Syndrome… on my birthday when I got a Sunday newspaper. When I saw the “symptoms,” I instantly related to each and every one of them that was listed, when I was a child and when I am an adult now. I told Mr. Huddle this afternoon when I saw him.
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— Kevin Havens. If it's on the internets it must be true!
It is known that Kevin has mental issues, and is on a shit-ton of meds. He may well have ADD on top of the FAS and according to many an E-Psychiatrist may even be schizophrenic since he's stated on his blogs that he hears his dolls speaking to him. He also speaks back to them. In fact, he goes so far as to insist they tell him that they want their own website, argue over which operating systems are the best, and insist that he signs their names along with his on all of his forum posts and e-mails. He's evidently been found to be fucked-up enough to recieve checks for it.
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Abyss Creations (the makers of the RealDoll) not bringing back its latex line of RealDolls. Maybe I could understand the $1,100 price tag a bit better and I also understand that “some assembly is required,” but I can easily afford that by saving up some of my disability checks.
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— Kevin Havens. Your tax dollars at work.
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Right now I have Daphne by my side and I can feel her presence strongly and she is hinting to me what to say here. To some people, they'll think you're schizo. I may have Asperger's, but there is no way in hell that I'm schizophrenic. These dolls have a nice presence that even a few minutes spent with one, it's felt for forever. I may want a robotic partner if something happens to Kathryn (my RealGirl), and I know that it is not too far off. Not the possible separation of me and Kathryn, but I know the offering of maybe somewhat-limited robotic partners is not too far away. I'm safely predicting 2010-2015 at the earliest. Not too far away FWIW.
My three cents.
CGM, Kathryn and Daphne
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— Kevin Havens. In denial
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She looked like to me that she was a code-hacking, caffeine-drinking, kind of conservative in her dress (until Andrea let her try tying her shirt bottom around her waist showing her belly button), Linux (Debian and Ubuntu)-using, kind of doll. I had to wean her onto Mac OS X, my favorite OS, because I had been exposed to Macs since System 6 and System 7.5, and I instantly fell in love with the Mac OS, even though that Mac OS X has a Unix foundation. (So I trained on Linux to give me an idea of the Unix foundation of Mac OS X.)
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— Kevin Havens. His dolls use Macs, too.
As you can see if you bothered to read that quote above, he's also a naval fetishist. Belly buttons turn him on more than pu55y.
He's spent a lot of the last few years in various dollfucker forums, asking about everything from how he could go about building his own fuckdoll to where he can buy cheap clothingfor his dollies. He often says he's asking on one of his dolls' behalf.
But all hope was lost. So, in other words, I had no chance to survive make my time. (Note that I will use Zero Wing “All your base” references throughout. I had used two already, and in this paragraph. I find that the responses of the Captain, the Operator, the Mechanic and CATS appropriate when necessary.) So, my all base are belong to them from there on.
He wasn't "her" first either. He buys "refurbished".
Take a look into the cold dead of eyes of the siliconebitches that order Kevin around all day. Always telling him what to do, eating all his Funyuns and drinking all his Bawls and from his balls. But they love him, they really do. And he loves them too. He loves them so much he even named them after members of his favoritest band, Squeeze. What an honor. Oddly, none of his dolls have the last name "Yankovic" in honor of Kevin's next most favored musician. He has at least 4 dolls thus far.
There are moar than these shown here. He has a display bust (mannequin torso) as well, and may have created a fuckdoll out of fabric and fill, making him a plushie to a degree.
He has tried to ween himself of of dolls before, but his efforts haved always failed even after he got a real live girl.
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Well, this cycle for me has finally come to an end. I am staying with mannequins, and I found my true love in Alexa Tilbrook (that's why she's getting this message CC'ed to her).
Yes, she may be a mannequin, but I love her, and there's NOTHING you or Jason can do about it. One person told me that most of you (including you two) doesn't see the need of a doller needing his soulmate, they're seeing me wanting either a $200 mannequin or a $5000-$7000 love doll.
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— Kevin Havens can't get enough of that plastic pu55y.
Notice that he sent his doll a copy of that e-mail.
OK. Let’s get some things straight and settled here. I am still getting Alexa next month, from NYC Display, and I am happy about it.
The few things are that I have to follow are as follows:
1. I have to save the money for it. No ifs, ands or buts about it.
2. I have to sign a contract with me, my mother, my brother and sister outlining the rules of me having one in my possession. These include the stipulations stated below. If I don’t follow them, Mom and the rest of the family reserves the right to have Alexa be committed to the trash can and I cannot recover it.
3. I have to keep it fully clothed, appropriately, at all times. I cannot have it in distasteful clothing, like in swimsuits, bras and panties (that’s why I said I’m not getting the HTTPanties for it in a previous post) or lingerie. Also, the purchasing and upkeep of the clothes are entirely my responsibility.
4. If I am away at Beach House or anywhere else, I would have to keep my door closed or if I want my door kept open, I would have to put Alexa in the closet. I may have to get a key-lockable door handle for my bedroom door. Easy peasy!
5. Alexa can still be mentioned in my blog, however, I cannot go too overboard about it.
6. No writing “albums” about it. (e.g., not translate {parody/Redux} an entire album about Alexa)
7. I can talk about Alexa on The Doll Forum, after all. After all, it is a place to discuss about it.
8. Talking about Alexa is off-limits to Beach House staff and members. They won’t get it and I may get chastised about it.
9. All Doll and mannequin pictures will be deleted from D:\1CasperGhostboy\My Pictures when I get Alexa. This includes the pictures of the mannequin that I was thinking of getting, and got.
10. I cannot perform sexual acts on it. This includes modifying it to do such acts. So, scratch the plans of dismantling my inflatable to modify the mannequin, because it ain’t gonna happen.
11. Also, I cannot write another “installment” of The Journey To Love when I get Alexa. Sorry.
12. The DVD movie Mannequin cannot be seen every single night with it. Special occasions, it’s OK. Every night, not OK.
13. I would have to take extra-special care of Alexa, because she would be the only one that I would get. The upkeep of it is entirely my responsibility.
14. No downloading, either from LimeWire or iTunes, mass loads of love songs and/or burning CD’s of love songs.
15. Anything that I haven’t mentioned here, but would be considered forbidden, will have to be upheld.
I know that’s a lot, but I would have to be on “my best behavior” in order to keep Alexa. This is a trial period, as allowed by my therapist, Skip, and had been agreed on by my family earlier this evening. If I am good on the trial period, more and probably more privileges with the mannequin may be granted. For now, this is a trial period. I don’t know how long it would last, but I hope that I can get more privileges with Alexa.
Well, that’s all. Gotta go.
Kevin and Alexa
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— Kevin Havens.
The fact that the SA thread and consequently this very page even exist is indicative of how well Kevin ultimately followed many the rules listed above.
They're having sex and getting married. What about you?
Which would you hit first?
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And back in 2006, I had found a RG (our term here for human women, it's short for "Real Girl" or "RealGirl," however you want to say it, and was drawn from the movie Lars and the Real Girl, which is coming out to DVD this Tuesday—can't wait) and even though that she hidden from me at first that she really didn't mind my interest in dolls, but it was for a good reason: she didn't want the two people (who aren't our friends anymore after some fucking stupid stunt they pulled about a month after we met), who set me and Kat (my RG) up to know that she really didn't mind it, it was my interest and it wasn't her duty to restrict me from it.
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— Kevin Havens
In spite of being a dollfucker, Kevin might not die alone like so many of his kind do. In addition to his dolls, he has a "RealGirl" named Kathryn Gage (Kevin and Kat, lol). To noone's surprise, she is handicapped and obese and therefore unlikely to do any better in the Man Department than a retard who fucks inanimate objects. He actually fucks her once in a while, and at one point they were afraid of her being pregnant since it would not have good results. Their relationship is that of caretaker and patient now. Basically Kevin changes her diapers and bathes her. They live off of her disability check and he now gets guvment cheese for living with her and wiping her ass. White trash, indeed. Kevin claims that she shares his interest in dolls as well. As additionally creepy as that may make it all, the pictures speak for themselves.
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But, one thing that I’m afraid of now (and she is also) that I might have gotten Kat pregnant, because of all the unprotectedsex we have been having over the past month or so. But, I told her and my mother that I will assume full responsibility and acknowledge the fact that I did, that’s why when I get my money, I’m going to the Rite-Aid on Tidewater Drive and Cromwell Drive to pick up a pregnancy test to make sure that she isn’t, because Kat, her family doctor, her gynecologist, and I said that we don’t want a baby yet, her gynecologist stated that she doesn’t want to deliver a child on her behalf too soon.
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— Kevin Havens. He's having unprotected secks with a real girl, guiz!
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The next day, I didn’t want to live a lie, and I didn’t want her wondering why a huge box was being delivered to the apartment, I opened the Private Messages module on TDF and showed her that I had bought a doll from another TDF member. Right then and there she hot-rodded her chair into the bedroom while I asked her what was wrong. She didn’t say anything. A few minutes later, Jason Stratman called and asked me why Kat was acting moody. I told him that Kat was mad that I had bought a doll. Kat told me to get off the phone right there. We argued for a few minutes and wasn’t talking to each other for a couple of hours, but we had reconciled our differences the next morning. A few days later, Kat was anticipating the doll’s arrival along with me.
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Well, it’s almost three in the morning and I need to get Kat changed and dressed soon before I go lay down to take a somewhat short nap so I can go with Kat to her urologist appointment so she can get her catheter changed for at least another three weeks to a month.
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— Kevin Havens. His girlfriend is cool with his dolls. Really!
What's in it for Kevin besides a place to live, food, and occassional sex? Kathryn has signed him as her beneficiary. That means upon her death he gets a shitload of money. At least enough to buy a coveted RealDoll, which is exactly what he intends to do. He swears that when she dies that he'll never be with another real woman ever again. Never EVAR. The doll he'll get will be made in Kathryn's likeness. Only it won't be crippled, and it'll be slim with big tits and totally hott, so to speak.
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If I recall correctly, she had put me as a bequeathed beneficiary on her trust fund just in case if something happened to her that if she doesn’t make it (she has a DNR–Do not resusictate–order on file), I would receive all funds necessary to see that her final expenses are paid for. And with her fund over (a lot) in the bank, I would see to it that her final expenses are paid for, all her bills are paid up and such, then I’ll buy myself a RealDoll] in nearly the image of Kat (Faces 10 [Angela], 12 [Britney], 11 [Jenny] and maybe 14 [Rui] make perfect candidates), with Body 2, because it matches Kat’s physique. I swore to her that I’ll never date another woman ever again, regardless of what happens. That’s how “forever” we are committed. Of course, I’d have to move out of the freedom of what this apartment afforded me, but that’s a given. But, if I get a RealDoll in nearly Kat’s image, I would never have to lose her if she departs this earth, because I’d name her Kathryn Dawn Gage, in honor of her, not Alexandra Tiffany Tilbrook.
Kevin lusts to be stalked. He has time and again posted his addresses on the interwebs and his latest move is no different. He supposedly lives here. Yes, he put that up on The Doll Forum.
About the time Goons started to feel more pity than outrage and disgust about the whole situation, a Canadian dollfucker named David Hockey (lol) appeared on the scene. He was so butthurt over the Goons' treatment of Kevin that he wrote an angry letter to Lowtax, comparing them to the KKK and threatening legal action on Kevin's behalf. It went over really well. Lowtax promptly posted transcripts of the e-mails on the thread telling Hockey to go inflate his E-lawyer and the Goons now had at the very least double the number of dollfuckers to laugh at. Hockey claimed to be a documentary producer who was researching the dollfucking phenomenon. He turned out to be much more lulzy than that. Hockey has duly earned himself his own seperate entry due to the sheer magnitude of his fail.
I'm mostly passive aggressive, like Ghandi, but when I came here in 2005, I was expecting a bunch of jerks here like I had seen on other forums. Instead, I have seen the most polite people—men, women and dolls, with their heads upright and screwed firmly on their shoulders. When I came from IGN Boards, at least they weren't as bad as SomethingAwfulmembers, but they had almost the same traits. I wish I could just file a lawsuit for a couple million dollars in whatever county in MissouriLowtax is based in, but I feel like my efforts would not be enough to win the money I wish, but I'm not letting these idiots on SomethingAwful get to me anymore. In fact, I had washed my hands clean of these people. I don't want to get in their affairs at all because their interests are not the same as mine and ours here. So, it's futile just to fight them. (But I have half a mind to believe that I had become another celebrity, but let's not go there, because I am who I am and I'd rather be me and keep it that way.) But if I start getting any threatening phone calls, emails, postal letters or anything that had been propagated by SomethingAwfulmembers, then that is when the policeis used. Then Lowtax is going down.
Damn, can't these Something Awful members (and I believe that it's them again) give up?
[b]You know, we can get Lowtax criminally charged for allowing "harassment over common carrier," a federal crime. Just a heads up...[/b]
CGM, CGB_Wife, Daphne, Andrea and Rachael
PS: I missed on the fun. I went away making failures trying to encode videos for the Sony PSP using open-source tools and I was away for a while. I guess it was in my best interests. Way to go mods! Now slap Richard "Lowtax" Kyanka with a criminal charge and get his f*cking website shut down.
Actually, not much. He's still giving out all of his information on dollfucker forums and waiting for his girlfriend to die. He's giving saving money a try.
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So, with figuring out bills and rent, we would have quite a bit left to spend, and since this forum is about dolls, this is my opportunity to say that the apartment is brought to me and Kat by the letters R and D and the number $7,000. So, starting with my economic stimulus rebate check, which is going to savings after some debt is paid off, then about $700 is going into savings each month or so, so that means I may have to tighten my belt with spending a bit so I can get my RealDoll that I have been wanting. So, that means I may have to cut out my eating out by 75% or so and not be spending every cent that I have at the GameStop near the apartment on video games and such, that also means going to RadioShack to get small gadgets. Basic groceries and such, and I can make a carton of cigarettes last me two weeks or longer, I did it before; and I may have to cut back going to the liquor store every so often and not getting that liter bottle of Bacardi every time. Maybe as an occasional "treat" but not every time that I get paid.
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— Kevin Havens
You can do it, Beetface! We know how good you are at managing money.
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OK, since it seems kind of impossible to actually save up for that Mac mini that I've been talking about in the last blog entry over a month ago (damn, it's been that long?), because I know that I attempted to spend the $200 that I was attempting to use toward the Mac on a PS2, a few games and a case of Jolt Cola at GameStop and ThinkGeek, respectively, then had to return the $200 that I set up an automatic transfer to my savings account back to my checking account because I had a shitload of bills piling up (dentist was one of them) and I had to pay them and I spent a lot at the grocery store for food (mostly Geedunks and sodas) and got very few "real food" items, I mostly spent it on an iTunes card, four twelve-packs of soda, two four-packs of Red Bull, a shitload of snacks, and only got very, very little meats and real food, the only meat that I got was two tenderloins of pork and turkey. I spent about $190 at Food Lion and had to take the cart home with me, but the moment that I loaded the bags full of food on the sofa, I quickly returned the cart back to the store and bought a Power Ade drink to rehydrate myself going back home, even though I took the shortcut back (and I'm glad I did learn it).
I don't have "sex" with my mannequin, per se, but I do masturbate on her by taking her clothes off and then while she's on her stand, I do my "thing" on her.
I'd have to put in my three cents here and since I have AS myself, and I sometimes do not understand the benefits versus the risks of being open about my doll hobby to others.
But since this is about your mother, only you know how she is.
But on the other hand, when I told my mother about that I had feelings toward dolls, she said at first "Okay, that's your life, if that's how you want to live it, that's up to you." But then later on, she denied ever saying that statement. She was using my "coming out" as a tool to analyze my behavior, as she is a special education teacher's assistant working with children with similar problems as me, and wanted to correct it as much as possible. It even got worse when I finally met my RG and I have two dolls now alongside my RG, and that made problems worse when I had found the optimum balance between RGs and dolls.
Of course my RG and I aren't talking to my mother or even my family anymore after some stupid stuff that they pulled this past weekend, so I really don't care about what my mother thinks about my quest to get a third doll, which she wants to stop at all costs. Go figure.
I could say more, but then I would go into TMI and I would regret it, so I'm going to go here and just say that only you know your mother than me or anyone else here at TDF, but once you tell, there is no going back. Just try to think of how you want to word it, once you figure out how your mother would probably act. TTFN.
